Man as God Pt. 2

Ok, so I found someone that I feel very strongly towards, and who feels as strongly towards me. Does this mean Venge is going to be a happy, tree hugging, hippy story now? Quite the contrary. At the center of the story is Venge's desire to reconnect will the truest love in all of human existence (even if it was spurned on by the Primordial Entities). Being able to explore those emotions with someone has proved nothing but beneficial.

I can relate more closely to Venge. I can imagine the pain and suffering that comes with being denied those emotions. I can understand the euphoria that washes over him in the fleeting moments when she comes to him to claim a soul. And then to imagine all those feelings getting stripped away in an instant?

So, is this 'certain someone' some sick, artistic, emotional experimentation to achieve a means? Anyone who knows me, even a little, would let you know that I am not capable of any form of this sociopathic behavior. But, it is the artist who applies the emotions and passions to their canvas like paint.

At first, I had fears of being with someone again. I was afraid that, amongst other things, Venge would get left behind. I owe it to everyone who ever had faith in me and this story. I owe it to my family. I owe it to my friends. I owe it to myself. I can't let that happen... and she won't let me.

On a side note, the previous post (Man as God) is a mess. But, I shall leave it in it's current state to further reflect the raw nature of these blog entries. I have already made note of changes needed with the other blog posts, but those shall be left also. At the very least, I have been able to determine a better way to write them in addition to certain plot devices that will be modified in the final draft.

Darn it. I really want to get to Magus Delahardy's story (which I intended to write in the other post and then again in this one), but it looks like that will have to wait for yet another post.

Man as God

Finding out that you are very different can be tough. Being reminded of it can be even tougher. And learning to deal with it is impossible. You cannot deal with it. You will either change to conform to someone else (or the generalised populace), or you accept yourself and tackle everything else that comes with it.

I have fluctuated between those two points at frequent intervals in my life. Picked on in school. Bullying in school. Molding into someone else to be accepted by them in relationships. Until I can finally, and faithfully, be everything I have made of myself. Everything that I am is everything that I took from everything in my past. I can honestly say, I am happy with what I have become and I do not care if it is anything that anyone else wants from me.

I'm not cocky. I have just finally accepted what I am. No need to try to be anything else. Luckily I found someone who agrees with me. With her, I don't feel that I have to be something else. I don't fear letting her know everything about me. I am not ashamed of being me. For once in my freaking life... I can be me.

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"Well," Begins Gregor, "You have learned a bit about the history of our world, our reality, and my current target. It is about time for you to learn of yours."

"The man you are being assigned to his been of great interest to the Observates as well as just about every supernatural entity that this world possesses. And we did have a Seeker watching him. We even have record of the person we sent, but all traces of them have vanished. There is no paper trail for him at all, and the Seeker's parents don't remember him."

"The name of the man you have been assigned to is, Edward Delahardy. And he is the only true Magus we have been able to locate."
"This is his last known whereabouts," He says, handing you a slip of paper.

"Contact me anytime you feel the need... and do be careful."

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(TBC)