Extrapolations

When trying to write these ideas, I have bit off more than I could chew. While all these ideas are in my head, never have I placed them in so much detail. And I am ashamed at how lacking they are in detail, at that.

While my initial idea may have been that: the main character fell in love with the physical embodiment of death and strives to kill bad people for a chance to see her again. My dilemma comes in figuring out how that may be possible and, furthermore, how to write that in a compelling way. I have worked through many of the conflictions, in my head. But, I have never written them out nor worked out how a dialogue concerning them might play out. I also, feel that trying to blog something after work, but before bed, also leads to lackluster scripting.

So, thank you for becoming a part of this experiment in self horrification. Feel free to comment if you feel so compelled. I won't take it personally. I'm not a writer =]

Greggor senses questions building within you.

"Let me stop here before you get lost in those questions," Greggor begins again, "I understand that you may wish for me to elaborate and be more detailed with some of the things I have already stated. What was before God? What happened with the Angels? What about the beginnings of man? and so on."

"Listen. I understand why you may be so inquisitive. But, I must warn you. I, too, was most interested in the complete truths. And, as it was explained to me in the beginning of my studies, all in due time."

"First, I feel that it would be best to explain how the Order of Observates is organised. If I were to recite every truths I have become privy to, not only would it take days of nonstop recitation to complete, but you would still be missing parts. Observates are chosen to shadow and watch key individuals. This has lead us to being called 'Watches' and 'Seekers' and even 'Stalkers'. Observates will, most times, spend their entire lifetime following the exploits of one individual. And while this may seem like a boring and thankless task, it is ours alone. Sometimes we pursue exciting and active individuals. In these cases, not only is maintaining anonymity difficult, but the subject of our observation may perish before they succumb to old age."

"In addition, an Observate who has proven themselves as very astute and, for lack of a better term, observant, may find themselves assigned to multiple subjects or as a collector of multiple subject truths. You may get to watch several people or you may be the one that Watchers report to."

"I tell you this, because I have been assigned to a man who now refers to himself as, Venge. And, his personal story extends back to these beginning days. As part of your training, you shall assist me in our observations of his activities. Also, as part of that training, you are to hear of his story and relay it back to me if asked."

"Do not worry, all Observate Initiates must undergo this process. In fact, I could recite to you my training assignment. A man by the name of Graustein. Spectacular fellow who was very difficult to remain hidden from."

"But I am sidetracking, please excuse me."

"As Venge's story has not directly been affected by what was before God, nor has it had any Angel involvement to date, and neither has the early days of man and woman. But God, Wogod, and the Ungod? Very important, and you shall learn exactly why."

The Beginning

I confess... I am not a writer. And neither do I consider myself an avid reader. So, what is captured within these blogs is a juvenile effort, by someone who draws, to write a story. This is not a cry from a low self-esteem (as I profess to having bad days, and worse days). This is a matter of fact.

I went back and spell-checked my previous posts, and they read smoother. I hope to, at least, engage you in my nightmare... I hope you really like it.

Greggor peers at you, reading you somehow. He seems content with what he has found and speaks again,

"Good. Let us start as far back as we can. Feel free to ask me for a pause, as there will be much to... digest."

"Man has the power to do anything. Mind over matter, Miracles, & Record breakers are just some examples of this. So why not god?"
"God was man. A man named, God. He was not the first of his kind, but he was the first of our kind. He was able to breach reality and became unhappy with the way things were. So it is that he started over. A painful amount of time passed before he became consumed with loneliness. He created a partner, equal in every way to himself, but possessing physical qualities most appealing to him. He called her Wogod and loved her."
"Wogod came into being possessing all the power of God and loved him in return. As time passed she began to question her place in reality. She sought to create new and chaotic things as she had not experienced them before."
"God soon became taxed with maintaining reality (he was only half the man he was before) that needed to create watchers and guardians to assist in keeping up with Wogod's machinations. Gods Angels. Wogod then became displeased. She did not like being ruled over and professed her abilities as Gods equal. She did not like being considered a child who was created and instead considered herself the same as God with the exception that she just arrived later. She claimed Angels for her own and insisted that she be referred to as Lilith and that none should make further reference to Wogod."
"In Lilith's excitement, she wanted to create beings of her own, but all solo attempts had failed. It took the combined power of herself and God to create man and woman."
"Time progressed where Lilith continued to venture out on her own leaving God to only watch. She wished for him to follow with her but knew that he had other duties. On one such occasion Lilith was able to convince God to follow with her into the shadows of her creation. It is true that God is all seeing and all knowing in his reality, but he now shared this reality with Lilith. God was shocked by what he saw in that moment. As Gods equal, Lilith had also became his opposite. Harnessing power equal to Gods, Lilith was able to conceal things from him that she knew would displease him. Things that she, herself, was ashamed of, but could not deny their affect on her. And in that moment, God cast his eyes once more on debauchery and vileness the likes of which he had not seen since he had started over. Normally calm and composed, God was consumed by the emotions of Lilith's creations. It a fit of overwhelming disappointment and rage, God undid Lilith."
"Everything that Lilith had created and influenced, vanished. All save for Gods memory of her. And he did mourn her undoing. He did love her after all. She was his equal, his soul mate, and half of his being died when she went away. Only the observation and guidance of their combined creations kept God from undoing it all again. Man and woman survived and progressed and procreated."
"Lilith was able to find herself, and willed her being to exist again. She was extremely hurt by God. She too loved him and only ever wanted to please him. But she could not deny that she was unable to do so. In this moment of self awareness, discovery, and emotion an immaculate event occurred. God and Lilith had a child. So strong was their love for each other. So powerful was their disappointment in each other. And so true was their inability to accept it all. Just as God created Lilith out of loneliness and spilt himself in two, so too did they create from their confliction. The Ungod was born. Ungod became a balancing force between its parents. And, with the power of God split into three equal parts, balance was attained. A universe on the brink of undoing itself was, in the exact instant it was going to be destroyed, saved."
"God established order. Lilith established chaos. And the Ungod established order where chaos was unraveling, and chaos where stagnation took hold."
"God embodied goodness. Lilith embodied vileness. And the Ungod embodied stubbornness."

"And there you have it," Greggor says, snapping you back to the present.

"That is the dawn of time and the beginning of our reality. I shall let you reflect on this and continue in a moment."