- Leonardo da Vinci
I admire Leonardo da Vinci greatly. I feel we have similar qualities. It is my aspiration to one day be ranked up there with him. A rather large boast, but we all need goals.
But, I get distracted. Calling me pationate is the typical response to me going on about the things I say and the things that really grab my attention. But, it is really only an excuse. There is very little reason for it. Likewise, I get very 'girl crazy'. I fall hard and fast. Make that: too hard and too fast.
Confident in the knowledge that there is not another out there who can complete me anymore, I still crave the affections of another. To be admired and to hold their facination. But, how could I possibly ask someone to forego their chance to be connected to their true love, by being with me? I cannot. I'm not selfish, just alone.
If it gets to be too distracting, I spend a sobering reminder in front of the mirror.
This gives me perspective again.
Calibrates me.
And sets me back to zero.
What if I'm wrong? What if I have yet to find the best person for me? What if everything I experienced was only a fraction of what I could experience?
I would rather have lost true love than never have found it.
But couldn't this be seen as selfish? What if I have yet to find 'the one', but, I meet her someday? By closing myself off from her, I deny her the ability to experience the love we all deserve.
Crap, I just found a flaw in my ideology. I... I don't know what to add. I have to think on this. Crappity crap crap. Well, I had something planned to write but I can't now. I'll be back if/when I can come up with something.
"Art is never finished, only abandoned."
- Leonardo da Vinci
